Mood:  down

what can i say back to the blues again . it is like as soon as the sun shines i feel doubly doubtful . the beetle thing trapped with  nowhere to go .. tempted to read more Camus and consider this argument . Is life worth lliving in a Godless world ?

now to today on the whole nothing too terrible .. morining spent swimming and the afternoon spent working or so it seems . i wonder how alone i can feel today .. although all was not lost .. my neighbour Mr Godden whom i like a lot .. and this has only just dawned on me . after years of contact .. looks like something out of a horror film .. it's ok because it's a 30s horror film so none too horror . however he does kind of remind me of the wolfman making me smile on the inside .. 

now to today .. i woke up late .. 08.40AM and after shopping for breakfast .. and breakfast i went swimmning.. till after 10.30AM or so .. and yes there was a sauna

and not satisfied with a mere swim more tai chi .. for an hour or so . . now i suppose i was feeling ok because radio 2 went on around 01.00PM and so after an hour os so i was ready for work .. peace of mind where i danced and did my thing .. 

yes after more tai  chi 30 mins i had a haircut .. and went out taking photos till tea time ..lovely 

now to tell you the truth .. i feell somewhat fragile .. radio comedy going through my brain .. snippets here and there .. sound bytes that get stuck in your brain like . pieces of met in your teeth . i know it gets on your nerves . me too 

and now well the day is fine and i feel better although i'm sure that i have have felt better . at sometime not too far in the near past .. yes February was a good month or was that January .. mnn!!

and now thanks

good luck yes today somehow i felt lucky.. for a minute i fellt luck was on my side and then i started to sing .. mnn 

 to good fortune as i feel that the chinese have got their priorites right .. now of course if i felt terrible i would not be in a mood to say thanks that would be painful .. just one thing i hope that my sight is not going  blurry maybe 

anyhow to great overal health mentall and physical .. lots of thanks for that and to everone helping me . to hobbies that tke time to master to family and to work that lets me float my boat .. no one can accuse me of laziness .now ehhh!! and to teachers like Andrew and Rose .. to tai chi and yoga swimming being healthy wealthy and wise .. single and safe . paid and loved 

well here is to mixing it .. because recently i have found that i am easily pleased

so here's to that ..

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Mood:  bright

ok so not perfect and maybe my expections have been too high maybe!! anyhow the day has had a high or two and a low that i'm still trying to think of .  so here goes

i woke up feeling ok . enough sleep and at 07.00AM i was up and for an hour or so did some tai chi till 08.00AM and felt good about work .. went shopping for grapes and went to work .. yes it went ok and so by 09.35AM i was resting .. as this is for me the end of the working week and so mid morning i woke from my meditation /sleep that's right i found meditation turned to sleep and i was ready for the day . ok nice to see Keith even though for a moment i had a crisis of confidence . However a retreat to the cave did the trick and Keith was nice enough to enquire about my work at the computer place .. nice bloke .. and so the day progressed and Clare and friends invited me to learn knitting .. and you know what i knittted till well on lunchtime brilliant .. no stress no thoughts no worries . and it proved to be the perfect antidote to my troubles .. talk about chilled .. simple to learn and rewarding .. 

after i joined Rose and Bob and read a little of the news .. ok and settled for a while . rustling somewhat .. and so by past 12.10PM i left and had some lunch and then thought it wise to read up on  some computer css .. finished by 02.00PM and ready for some swimming and sauna .  great and i was done by 03.20PM of course no day would be complete without a bass guitar session. lasting until 04.00PM 

a run after this 5 miles and shopping  for tea . and a wind down to the weekend .. ccoking potato and chicken .. 

a day and a half .

thanks to good luck good fortune . great mental health and great  physical health ok so now i am going to change things .. what would i be like without family to raise me and what about good food and enogh money to spend on the simple things in life . thanks to Amanda Dixon i am now no longer on DLA and am working . thanks to community computers i have learned skills that i think are valuable so too books and people like Ken Darby who have introduced me to technology .. and to the drs and nurses who have found ways to help me be well .. and to Teachers like Andrew Rose etc who have taught me skills involving yoga and tai chi . to Patricia who started me off in relaxation to friends who understand to a roof over me and help from the taxpayer to ease my burden .. to good senses and limbs to gardens to laughter and tears comedy and music these are so much a part of my life now .. to medicine and vitamins that keep me well .. and to my landord who taught me humilty and caring .. plus great neighbours who are good people .. 

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Mood:  special

yes ok so i got nervous once . pinpointed the problem and moved on .. yes swimming was great and the sauna too .. yes i got home and made some more nintendo DS and yes had an anxiety session where i found that i was frightened by things that are not likely to happen but although they have in the past i fear that they might occur again .. although to be truthful i miss my tv .. the space is so bare .. anyhow the clock moved on and i met Mum and Susannah at 12.00PM and listened to Mum .. i feel that i have connected so much  with  her today .. and so moved on more confidently .. yes i got home and had a rest till it was time to go tai chi with my favourite pals . and yes the afternoon went well Andrew was great and i surprised myself . doing the left with an audience and doing it well .. my best .. yes i had to think a few times but always moving on confident and with purpose .. i felt proud and i was pleased that Andrew who is such a perfectionist held the opinion that the boy done good. something to be proud of .. his reaction meant a great deal and again my opinion of him has increased because he was fair ..iweve

now of course i still have the manners of a dog on  heat  at times however that is not life threatening yet .. bugger basically . back at home i dipped somewhat and listened to the radio and laughed till it didn't matter anymore .. 

now after something to eat and more i feel better although i have had a scare and now carry on with renewed vigilance .. as i am not out the woods yet .. not by a long chalk 

now the thanks ..

good luck good fortune great mental health great physical health great spirits and laughter .. tears and comedy to music to gardens to toys to phones to family to medicine to vitamins to being sober  single and a non smoker to senses and lfelmbs to hobbies to swimming saunas to all those who have and are helping me through this difficult time .. to teachers Andrew and Rose to fellow yogis to email to the internet to breakfast lunch and tea .. shops to radio to books to good neighbours to good landlords to hekp with the rent to help with living to a roof over my head to learning to rest and to sleep to meditation to reiki to people like Rose and Clare to June Jane Kay and to Pauline 

and to work and work mates to being paid too . 

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Mood:  hungry

 funny how fine weather makes me feel like a have left something undone .. the sun is saying beautful day and i wonder what on earth it is all about .. looking out over the town .. the whole thing shouts holiday somewhere like Spain and then i see where i am home .. Taunton and holiday thoughts soon fade away . the climate confuses me .. as i spend most of the time indoors .. away from people who spend their lives outside .. t anned types who look after trees or roads and drunks etc .. not forgetting younsters teenagers who have still to believe that sunshine equates happiness .. anyhow the  sun is shining and the day is not yet done . i woke up this morning around 08.00AM and went shopping for breakfast that done nice deal on grapes .. i carried on with some tai chi and yoga lasting around 75 mins .. till i was ready to go out to a mens group . run by the peace of mind people .. sun still shining !! and had some fun till 12.30PM whereupon i then found time to go swimming and enjoy a sauna . till around 03.00PM .. now to be honest no Heather unfortunately however the swim went well and i did meet Nikki .. who let  me into a secret about techinique .. i now swim at around 21 hstrokes instead of over 30 plus .. that is what i got for listening .. that and to take things easy . 

 i finished up and went home where i got down to some studying .. more css and a breakthrough .. my navigation bar looks great .. all with a simple click .. yes getting the class right and in the right place acting upon the correct tag and with the right other descendants .. however my bar looks good and so i carried on in good cheer .. discovering how to create hover techiniques that mimic mouseover javascript .. great for highlights .. and so that was good enough for me .. and i finished up at around 04.00PM whereupon i went out for a walk and enjoyed the sunshine for a while .. returnig i practiced a little bass guitar .. and again found myelf wondering why .. no passion it seemed .. and so i settld down to some reading .. excession is quite mad .. and yes the story is all coming together now .. 

it's now past  05.10PM and i am thirsty .. weak almost with the need for something fruit or something wet .. i might even say a pint .. and yet i know that that is something to be avoided with yoga on some minutes .. 

i seem to be only happy or confident when writing .. blogging .. and yet well .. at least i am well in myself .. spiritually and emotionally and mentally to a large degree .. well here is to some more meditation and something to drink .. 

thanks will come later .. but for now .. here is to good luck good fortune and to great overal health .. to all those who have jelped me in my time of need .. and to waking up to such a wonderful day ..to tai chi yoga to teachers Andrew Rose and to good neighbours good landlords to the internet to toys to phones to friends and hobbies to email to nintendo DS to laughter comedy music to love to tears to radio to tv to being sober  a non smoker to being single to help with living to rent paid to warm sunny days to fellow yogis to books to learning to swimming training etc to saunas to senses limbs to sleep to medicine to vitamins to the albemarle center to teeth and hair to good mental health great spirits to great physical wellbeing to skills learned . to the safety of all . 

Posted by ecomill at 6:15 PM BST

Updated: Wednesday, 18 March 2009 9:12 PM BST

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Mood:  hungry

so today has been on the whole good .. not too terrible .. even when i was fretting about my blood test .. and the day has worked out well .. so here goes in sequencial form .

woke at 07.00am up by 08.30AM lovely feeling .. and so shopping and breakfast .. whilst tai chi got me off to a good start .. an hour or so great .. basically i was back at my place by 11.15AM and feeling good .. yes i meditated and yes lunch was done. studies went ok . and afterwards i felt like i needed a swim . nice to meet Jen Asian friend and we talked computers etc .. and after 45 mins of laps well  the sauna went well . and i was out by 03.45PM .. ready . to go for a walk .. and yes i talked to Jane Dispera and i came home by 04.45 or so and did some guitar practice till tea time .. yes a nice piece of scale work today . A minor was a beauty .. also .. dinner was a complete success .. delicious .. 

and after well more nintendo DS and some sudoku .

now to feelings etc . today has worked out well .. yes i was anxious about blood tests etc .. however what infact occured .. was a great little conversation between the guys there and myself .. easy conversation .. fascinating .. the wonders of modern meds .. internet etc again . 

i have  begun to distill my activities somewhat these are simply these .. 1st work both voluntary and paid .. 2nd study .. css and html xhtml etc .with some sci fi reading . 3rd training .. swimming running yoga .. and finally practice .. bass guitar / photgraphy her

and so to the highs of today .. the weather ..sunny and warm . and seeing Jane with her dogs and cat . nice fellow Henry also .. 

lows .. worry over nothing .. still see Cheddon Lodge as part of Rydon House and all that went on there . 

now to thanks .. waking up good luck to good fortune to great mental health great physical health great spirits to breakfast sleeping in .. tai chi .. running to all those people who have and are helping me through these troubled times . to a monthly checkup . to sunny weather to a roof over my head to good landlords to good neighbours to toys to work to getting paid to travel to friends and hobbies to help with living to cognitive therapy to family to email to the internet to books to teachers Rose and Andrew to chance meetings to new friendships to music to laughter to tears to comedy to senses and limbs to lunch to dinner to shops to gardens to exercise to saunas to study online to medicine to vitamins to being sober a non smoker to being single to phones and meditation 

oh and the wonders of wisdom that are worth more than gold .. and yes if i can share that well they say wisom is better than money // here is to reiki .. 

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Mood:  special

 What is it .. I don't get .. i was getting myself dry and listening to these 2 men chatting about a girl and asking themselves the question as to the nature of her sexuality .. well they must have felt guilty because they soon quieted down .. and then bang Christopher is there and i'm confused as to why he is bearing down on me from a great height so to speak . i start to talk of the weekend and he says quite rightly it's over . well i felt like i had been banged to rights .. caught in the act of something i shouldn't .. and so i can't help but recal the poem concerning blame and how come there is so much of it in the world . that it is best not to worry about it too much .. and yes i feel that things are getting better even though there i a great deal of weirdness around .. 

this is my day ..

i woke after a dream .. wolves black and light ones .. all running  

and then up around 07.15AM wonderful ready for the day and feeling good so far .. tai chi to get me started .. plus some yoga .. and well by 08.30AM i was ready for my close up .. and running with a good mate .. cross country .. with the sun already rising high in the sky i enjoyed the calm of the morning .. we ran for maybe 4 miles .. and talked .. i let him do the running as he was smarting from an injury and we arrived back 40 mins later .. 

to be honest the rest of the time before the shops openned was a blur ..  however one plus is that i moved the furniture around to  give some room to the place ..

after shopping and breakfast i was feeling good and did some house work plus  washing and some meditation or sleep i can't recal .. anyhow the morning went by swiftly .. and i was into my lunchtime and preparing to meet Chris and Janet for 02.30PM well this arrived all too soon 

yes i was nervous and yet the afternoon was a success Chris and I had a fantiastic time and i enjoyed myself wholeheartedly climbing trees .. jumping streams .. and taking a few photos .. the land is very picturesque these days and i was surprised to find frogs spawn .. made my day .. we returned and i learned a few things about the garden .. time to plant peas ..

arriving home i was somewhat overwhelmed by the whole day . having done all the things i needed to do .. tai chi yoga learning more about how to style lists and make cool navigation bars .. whilst keeping with my guitar practice .

and so the late afternoon arrived and i chose to level things down a bit .. some meditation and some tai chi 30 mins and later a swim and sauna .. lasting until 06.40PM .. yes i was a bit stressed and what went on in the sauna was a result of my overexcitement .. nice to see Allan . and also Russell no less .. and so on to the changing rooms thing .. no bones broken .. and  i guess a little role confusion . yes that would be it  .. enough said .. if people want to be homophobic well it is not pretty and it is not worth worrying about .. and i hope that when ever i have said things that i have later on regretted .. well i am not going to cast the first stone . and to be fair i was intrigued as to the topic of the conversation if you could call it that . lesbian mmnn very sad to be fair .. very sad .. however there you are world doing its thing and us trying to make it work . 

i wonder if all this is getting to me women are from venus and men are from mars .. mnn.. and me from Queens .

thanks to waking up . to good luck good fortune to tai chi yoga to  excercise to saunas to  medicine to vitamins to good neighbours to good landlords to friends to family to a roof over my head to help with living rent paid to fellow yogis and all those people who are helping through this troubled time to senses limbs to meditation to shops to toys to phones to showers to work and work mates to sleep to learning to books to teachers like Rose and Andrew to Jilll to being sober a non smoker to being single to the safety of all i know .. to travel to cars to Work at SCC .. to work mates to email to the internet to gardening to laughter to tears to music to comedy to art to walks to breakfast lunch and dinner to education to Queens to Aberdeen to University to poems to reiki to rest 

and that is about it . yes a weird day .when you find out what is in your room 101 ..

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Mood:  smelly

i guess that this day is much like any other day . the sky was a little more blue and it was warmer .. i was rather more excitable in my way .. and to be fair . the same got done as in most days .. perhaps more .but without people that might be the key ..

now to begin i woke late and slumbered as much as i could .. till well past 08.00AM teeling myself that i had not had a lie in for a long time .. and so the day got off to a late beginning .. yes there was the tai chi and the breakfast shopping etc and even swimming  and a sauna even although to be honest i swam for 25 mins and  left after only 50 mins .. too many families . no fault but well swimming was like swimming through a minefield .. 

and after well the highlight . buying flowers and getting them  delivered .. i guess that i know what is bothering me . simple .. Rachel from parkgate 

i am not used to her ways as yet ..and threats of a home visit well . i know that i am on the whole ok .. good days and better . yes work is really becoming satisfying and friendships are blooming .. my yoga practice is again enabling me to enjoy the long silences etc .. like today i sat alone and enjoyed being rested and in no hurry .. so i guess that i am becoming comfortable with myself .. more and more .. it seems .. 

yes there are problems .. my phantom erections well i would prefer not to have them and i imagine that these will go eventually or that i will be able to deal with them .. i have foundm that an active mind does this best ..

and so when someone you know very little about starts to call in the heavy brigade well .. part of me feels like that would be a change .. i mean what would they find .. a beautiful home that oozes good tidings .. fresh cooking now that i have the oven sorted .. great .. people in glass houses well ..

anyhow to today .. after swimming and my idea on a present for mum i had lunch and did some work from 02.00 till 03.00PM well i was surprised to see Andrew and relieved to see Bethen whom seems such a poor thing .. quiet and rather sad .. 

and so i was pleased to see the sunshine and the fine afternoon and went out and filmed it .. a few nice shots and back home .. followed by some home work css and a guitar session . lasting until before tea time .. now of course tonight is special another month of standing like a stake .. and i managed to watch the world go round for a while until the meal was done .. salmon goats cheese beans and jacket potato with a dash of what was in the baking tray  with houmous of course .. rather wonderful .. 

and so this has been my day .

thanks to waking up this morning . good luck to good fortune to good mental health great physical health to birthdays to help with living to rent paid to good neighbours great landlords to gardens to work and being paid to hobbies to email to the internet to learning css html xhtml etc to the weekend to a roof over my head to warmth on a cool night to toys to phones to family to swimming saunas and tai chi yoga to fellow yogis and teachers like Andrew Rose and to all those who have my best interests at heart . drs and nurses to social workers to chemists to psychiatrists to peace of mind to Such to scc and work mates to people like Janet to books to senses and limbs to laughter and tears to comedy and to music to a good shave to shops to breakfast lunch and dinner to medicne to vitamins to meditation to the safe keeping of all those i know ..

and now it is dark and well i hope that i have discovered something about myself . yes i considered the situation . of whether i had ever witnessed my father or fathers satisfying my mum and i considered this and did an experiment .. yes the advert "IT'S FANTASTIC" well that was good enough for me . that  was my father doing the lake for my mum.. thanks to the rather fantastic girl on the till well i hope that i can give her a hint about the great thing she did ..thankyou .. !! there!! no one will know . 

and so to the phone call that i have just recieved .. again i bit my tongue and stayed listening ..

mum said that it was a surprise . ahah !!

and yes it would be a great idea that the two ladies in my life go into house sitting together  . wonderful!! and i am looking forward to seeing either one on wednesday ... 03.30 PM . 

i guess that one of the finest things you can say is I'm glad of that conversation ..

and now it 's before 08.00PM and closing time .. last orders please .. my neighbourhood seems quiet now that the club has closed no bands no noise and only a few homeless every now and then . 

the day has had it's highs and lows

lows being .. swimming .. and highs being mum phoning ..

Posted by ecomill at 8:53 PM BST

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Mood:  crushed out

i feel at a loss . yes i am tired and the day has passed by quickly .. and i believe that i am progressing especially in my practice of tai chi .. yes today i let rip and two things hapenned . one no one got hurt in any way .. and two .. it felt right .. noted that there was a small amount of attention from my fellows .. now to the other pressing issues .. nothing so far with Jane .. patience!!! and yes i feel torn . because i don't yet have enough self confidence to imagine that i could provide an environmnet where her own realtionships could bloom . dinner parties and the like . men are from mars women are from venus great .. and now to the day 

woke at 07.00AM well ok earlier but snoozed and went swimming .  45 mins a mile and a sauna .. till 09.00AM and went home and did more tai chi and yoga . for an hour.. and so by 11.00AM i was ready to nap and woke around 12.15PM whereupon i went out to shop .. and met Sarah God we get on well .. we talked till past 01.05PM and i had to hurry home to have a chance at something to eat .. after a snack i ran to tai chi class and had the best of days . thanks largely to Andrew and his way of making each lesson differenet .. it is like a box of chocs yu never know what yer gonna git . ah and the gang were all there . Pauline Kay June and last but by no means least Jane . yes i felt good and the afternoon went well . i learned a lot .. mainly to focus focus focus .. attention to detail is Andrew's specaility .. and after well .. i went home talked to Adam for a while and did some thinking ie  a quick walk around the block .. of course i did manage some bass guitar practice and a few pages of Excession IM Banks great whilst i figured out the xhtml .. with a few surprises .. 85% and something to be proud of ..yep good '

now that the sun has set welll it is Mum's birthday and a present might be in order .. something that the lady would like . caps on 

of course the high was that nano second of attention and the low was having no one on the end of the line at such .. and no jane .. so for the next week tongue biting time .

well i guess that that is that . i feel drained and somewhat alone when to be fair i would love someone to be with .. i believe it is the lack of a tv .. mn 

thanks however to the usual suspects .. only i remembered to say the right words a give credit where credit is due and that i trust Andrew totaly even if it meant putting my hand out .. those nails were fantatic ballanced so .. of course . to  good luck good fortune to good neighbours to good lanldords to good mental health good physical health to great spirits to senses and limbs to the intenret to email to teahcers like Andrew Jill to Rose to tai chi to yoga to laughter tears to comedy to music to being sober a non smoker to being single to learning waking up to breakfast to lunch to tea to help with living to rent paid to toys to phones to sleep to medicine to vitamins to books to radio to fellow yogis and yoginis to fellow taosits to gardens to friends to family to people like Ahmmud to Nagib to swimming to saunas to teeth to hair to peace of mind to work to being paid to hobbies to shops. 

i might just go and do a bit of twittering  plus some guardian online .. 

Posted by ecomill at 8:18 PM BST

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Mood:  surprised

before i forget or at least before i start to ramble on .. firstly the morning went well again .. the afternoon was a challenge that i rose to and tonight is strangely sureal ..

i woke later than usual and delved into my tai chi yoga shopping and breakfast all done by before 11.00AM well waking up i knew that i was going to be ok .. or at least have a fair shot at the whip .. after well i made my way to .. in an orderly fashion to the men's group where i hoped that had  an agreeable contribution .. and an hour later or so 12.30PM i was out and swimming by 01 .00 PM now of course i met a great girl Nikki who somewhat shocked me because we got on so well .. every time i expected the semi cold shoulder this Goddess just kept on being beautiful and charming .. i fell in love almost straight way..father a printer and brought up in Dundee wow we have s much in common .. bingo . 

now afterwards i had an appointment at the hospital and i was there for an hour .. where i truly did need to employ my yoga skills .. things were falling apart and the sound of the crowd was getting to me .. and i was beginnng to panic inside and it seemed as if it was onlly a matter of time before i lost it big style .. and then after trying conversation i sank into a yogic meditation and this worked beautifuly .. and some time later i was roused by the dr calling my name .. i was alert and well and enjoyled the meeting .. homeward bound i walked easilly and arrived home by around 05.15PM

yoga with Rose was interesting i loved my present and did a special thing .. no need to compete ..headstand you know the score ..

and so that seems to be it ..

thanks to  good luck good fortune good mental health great physical health great spirits great neighbours great landlords to waking up this morning to tai chi breakfast lunch and tea to dinner to albemarletoys to tears to laughter to comedy to the drs and nurses and all those people who have helped me in my current situation to hobbies to the internet to medicine vitamins  to teachers Andrew Rose and fellow yoginis and yogis to fellow taoists to Kay and June to Jane to Pauline to teeth to hair to email to family to phones to peace of mind and the men's group to Andrew to a roof over my head to help wiith living and the rent to the albemarle center to meditation to work and being paid to the guys at Somerset community computers to swimming and to Nikki to saunas to senses and limbs to being sober a non smoker to being single to sleep to gardens to shops to learning and to games 

Posted by ecomill at 9:17 PM BST

Updated: Wednesday, 11 March 2009 9:50 PM BST

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Mood:  amorous

i guess that once you takeaway a few choice moments today has proved more than average . thanks to a few discovered facts . Norman who is a computer whizzz and Dan who is where i would like to be in say XX time .. yep web developer extrordinaire .. wow basically so i guess God moves in ways that we can never understand .. ah mn and so to the day in a sequential manner ..  woke at 07.00AM and prepared for work .. tai chi for an hour or so .. great and of course shopping breakfast and a few odds and ends .. meditation and some yoga . till 10.00AM . i felt comfortable with Janet and Chris and so we set to work .. hard and fast .. and in the mean time well chatting to the guys . Peter and Tony . Dan and Norman .. of course discovering more about these guys was a real boon .. photography and web language . and a whole lot of weirrd humour wonderful .. gentlemen !! 

and yes i was quite exhausted come 01.30PM where i went home and mediated for 30 mins . till 02.00PM enjoying the peace only to go swimming till 03.30PM nice to see Kim and a lady who gave me advice upon teaching . at scat well i never !!

and once home more css and html links for once working for once .. and at past 04.30PM guitar practice .. and after well more walking and a short stop to play a fender bass mex .. mnn £500 .. mnn and after enjoying the sunshine and the crowds .. 

home by early evening and cooked chicken .. simple whilst a raunchy bit of the novel of the moment .. Excession . new culture .. and well that is about it . 

health wise things are ok .. so far as i haven't done anything rash .. however i must admit that things can get a trifle out of hand hard reminders sometimes . where it seems like that my life hangs in the whim of the tide .. 

anyhow life is how you make it and i am doing my damnest to fil in every moment ..

so to goodl luck and good fortune good friends .. good mental health great physical health and to good spirits to waking up to tai chi to yoga to shops to meditation to sleep to work and travel to work mates to everyone at work todaa y to lunch to customers to vitamins to medicine to laughter and tears to comedy to music to hobbies to a roof over my head to help with living to rent paid to good neighbours to good landlords to the mail to gardens to books to learning to teachers Andrew Ross and to being sober a non smoker to being siingle to teeth and hair to Jane the girl i love .. to radio to the internet to email to wallks to fellow yoginis to yogis to fellow taoists June Jane and Kay to Pauline .to family to phones to toys to dinner to senses and limbs and to work that is paid to peace of mind to people like Rose and Mark to Maggi to Stuart Bethen Jo and Lucy etc to Susan and to Bob and all at mind .. to Andrew 

the highs today .. plaiying a fender mex .. easy .. and discovering more about the people i work with .. Dan and Norman ..Peter and Tony .. Chris ..and Lynn ..

well i guess that  is that .. warmth on a cool night .. and the lows . 

still being single after all these years . and the lonliiness that comes with the territory .. feeling exhausted and spent .. like the horse in waiting for Godot 

Posted by ecomill at 8:01 PM BST

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