Amber yoga
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: amber yoga
Topic: reiki

considering this new idea . or concept of Yoga amber yoga .. something that says simply like a traffic light .. you have green amber and red .. or in the east (Japan) blue amber and red ..

now yoga can be used for either the beginning so red amber green /blue ..or slowing down green/blue amber red ..

Yoga in this form is like the space between .. surrounding all that is movement .. or all this is still ..   

the asanas are simple .. I guess that i may describe each in some kind of order .. as i record everthing that has led to this new thinking at least on my part ..

firstly a state of mindfulness .. breathing .. etc .. music simple piano perhaps .. or liquid mind .. Roach .. that kind of genre .. nothing that detracts from the corpse posture .. dropping down into your furthest nether regions .. like diving down into the sea .. watching the surface from below ..

then perhaps stretching .. and considering all that you seek to reach .. beyond that you can grasp . 

salute to the sun ..

then the mountain posture . followed by the grasping of hand to foot .. both forwards and to the side .. 

then the tree pose .. this then invigorates the body .. into the next step ..sitting .. meditation & strething ...  

the full complete boat and the knee hand pose stretchs the whole body .. finalised by the back extension

a simple twist of any kind . looking back as far as possible .to the left and right 

supine postures are a great way to stretch the legs .. whilst the inverted pose relaxes the whole body .

i guess that the breakthrough came after incorporating the balances .. both the swinging forward and the crane .. (much later .. ) whilst adding the backbends has had an agreable effect upon my perception of hope the camel and the upwards bow .. both done in the dark .. focus the mind upon what is truly importand ..

now this is my yoga ..and i guess that it could be circumstantial in  illuminating the path of what i call amber yoga .. however i also am aware of yoga as a whole as being quite vast . and so Amber Yoga being a small part of this whole .. and to be honest .. my own invention .. however .. the name has a good feel for me .and it does no harm .. and probably has it's roots in a huge array of differing thoughts feeliings experiences including reiki .. and tai chi qi qong ..swimming sauna etc etc etc . runninng and conversation .. my life as meditation .. to simplify . matters 

whilst also making room for the battles i have waged upon the various disabilties i have brought about within myself .. both mentally physicaly emotionally and spiritually ..a lot of pain actually .. all this goes to make amber yoga .. mine .for the moment . yellow orange .. preparing to begin preparing to rest . 

 

Friday for me .. rest and more rest
Mood:  special
Now Playing: send a poem .. say how you feel ..
Topic: reiki

Somehow Friday is a day of rest for me . and yet sometiimes you can have too much of a good thing .. spending the day in bed .. soon sees off any chance of opporunity .. however it has been a long busy week ..and i slept .. oh yes i slept .. the high today was seeing a movie fro sale a good movie . The Thing .. Carpenter Directed .. now this is a classic ..that made me consider the state of the world of special effects .. no CGI no this was made in 1982 .. and yet the effects are superb .. i guess this was the year of the slime pot .. a pot of slime that was as organic as anyone would care to wish for ... and the movie .. well if you like that kind of boy we are stuck here in the middle of nowhere ie the arctic and someone here is an alien .. and i didn't like any of you guys anyway .. well i am reminded of Agatha Christie.. let the countdown begin .. the music is good .. about the only warm element in the film . analogue synthesis .. similar to the masterpiece Apocolypse Now .. yes this video i call it a video because that is how i saw it .. is also the best movie i have seen Kurt Russel act .. and yes he can act .. seriiously .. in ... given a simple script . the motivation is simple.. One of us is an alien and is sure ain't me .. sounds easy and that is the beauty of the film ..An incredible simple plot ..done extraordinaraly well ..superb music . great acting astounding effects and some moments that deserve to be immortalized in stone ..  this is a 10 out of 10 

 yes I m an old school when it comes to movies .. adult i guess 

now to the day

 

cue music .. i think .. minor drum and bass ..to go with the sudden shouts of youths .. bells of churchs . chiming the time .. the sound of motorbikes .. a dark grey sky .. sudden silence .. only the hum of a computer ..and the sound of a keyboard ..

so here is my day 

i woke after a few dreams .. one being rather horrifying .. a fight with my brother .. to stop him from killing himself .. razors .. blood and a fight that saw me throw him down the stairs .. of our old house so many years ago .. sound of sirens

then i woke and wrote it down .. followed by more sleep and more dreaming .. Glen Gregory and heaven 17 . singing as if in a choir .. one number from their album Penthouse & pavement

and more another dream empty shop .. india .. crystals .. recession

and then i woke and up .. feeling good .. at least for a few hours .. tai chi for an hour till 08.10 and out shopping .. for breakfast .. and then work

nice to see Rose Clare Andrew s who is great .. utterly mad and quite useless .. talked gardens allotments etc mark was good fun .. and i went away feeling good .. 10.20 am

home and 

some computer stuff .. followed by  sleep .. 12.30 till 02.00 pm .. yes  lots of sleep .. 

and after ? well more in the way of swimming .. that saw me swim for  40 mins and enjoy a sauna .. till time for a bass guitar practice

03.30 till 04.30 pm great

felt like i shouldn't be doing this . for some reason .. ah yes .. due to a  history of problems .. well i could not understand that one

and so around 04.30 i was ready to go out and shop . more food .. and ready by 06.00PM

salmon mm

and then some blogging .. and emails

this has been my day ..and although i feel like i am sitting in a wet pile of old towels whilst being asked to fill out questionaires concerning snacks that are made in order to invite a coronary  i am ok

 thanks to waking up . good luck good fortune ..good food . work and being paid to work mates to medicine to good spirits to toys to hobbies to a roof over my head to good neighbours to good landlords to laughter music tears and comedy to gardens to peace of mind to mind to friends to family to phones to the weekend to shops to all those who are aiding me in this time of strife . to lmbs senses teachers to good weather to money in the bank to art 

exercise to meditation to good overal health to good drinking water  

wimbledon & me
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: ok so this might sound .. a bit .. outlandish
Topic: reiki

I remember reading the tao of Pooh and the te of Piglet .and a few lines carried so much meaning that i took for artistic licence . the sound of desparation is getting louder and louder .. well this tea time whist getting changed in the local swimming baths ..I got it .. i knew what Hoff was getting at .. and yes the sound of desparate men is getting louder ..and louder .. i thought that i was going mad ..and yet there it was for me in black and white ..

and now to the day .. I still can't shake off this horrible film fevm ..  well it seems that this darn film has me hooked .. so why not .. it's been a while .. and yes the last movie was so awful i vowed never to go back .. and yet .. Public Enemies .. Micheal Mann .. great looking film ..  i wonder though the hype these days .. is beyond me ..  and yet the leading actor is a comic genius so why caste him as Dillinger.. no one else ? 

so here is the news .. Federer vs Andy Roddick . wel the later always reminds me of ice cream ..and Federer must be having an off day .. 2 set all 14 13 games so far in the last set ..

now today has been a long one and yet as soon as i said it to myself the moments flew by .

I woke early at 07.05 AM and instead of idly listening to the gospels .. i got up and considered the situation .. to run or not to run .. well after 25 mins of tai chi i was not prepared to rsik the issue ..and rang a friend to say that the deal was off .. no running on the Quantocks today aat least .. no instead i went my own way ..and 20 mns later arrived back home having done a mini run .. 20 mins or so to see if my hunch was ok .. my stomach was still tender and heavy .. and i gave myself something of a consolation prize ..more yoga .. say 20 mins or so  .. 

i was not fully tuned in . today .. not until later .. breakfast at gone 10.00 AM and after well .. not much .until i went out drawing . not my best today .. too over sensitized . 

 drew some  interesting pieces .. cars again . the second being in my opinion better .. maybe i don't know and this carried on till lunch time .. and onward .

however at 12.30 PM i was in deep reiki situation . and over 90 mins later i was done .. and ready to go out and about .

walks with Chris are aways interesting ..and today he was on fine form .. what a relief .. I enjoyed our time and i know that he did .. the lake was great .. loads of dragonflies .. etc and a few insects i have never seen before .

home and swimiming  .. sauna . 30 mins of hard graft . and after. some cultivated chat .

home and something to eat ..meat  and potatoes .. 

 

who felt grim .. on such a day . meeting friends
Mood:  down
Now Playing: meeting Patsy
Topic: reiki

oh lord do i feel a mess .. somehow i have lost myself somewhere . somehow .. waking up was a lesson in recal . Saturdays can be great i know however this was an effort . and so at 07.00AM till 08.00AM was tai chi time and after,, a shopping trip for breakfast . mnn !! and so the day started with a start . and an attempt at deep meditation . however what i am not sure of is the effect that the subliminal relaxation CD is having upon my good nature .. i feel haggard i guess . all trumped out . lacking in any zest . and somewhat fearful again .. yes after all this i went on a walk . with the guys . and this was tough . for reasons i cannot say . apart from my love factor is high and i have nobody to give my amorous attentions upon ..  yes you know . after my reiki attunement i have been celibate . ahhh !! now we found ourselelves in the clouds and amid the heather and gorse . absolutely beautiful . with the odd lake and a 400 yrs old building meant to warn of the armada's arrival . yes there were fun times and the going was easy . muddy yet easy . good to  soft . met some horses and two beautiful fouls . god that was a moment . seeing the wonder of nature in the eyes of a baby . alone and looking so frail . so wonderful i could not take a photo . out of respect . because i knew that whatever i did to record that scene my efforts would do no justice . to what i can only describe as nature's  perfection ... wow !!! and yes we walked on . more lightly i hope .. 

and after a trip to a garden center where the weirdness continued . i felt as if the mist was still floating around my ears .. and still those noises the gruff . stuff that i don't know the origin . however nothing to fear . and we chatted till after 13.30PM  . returning home i felt the need to sleep and relax and so by 15.00PM was awakened by Brian Smith . in better spirits than yesterday and after more tai chi an hour again . and after a trip to Sunseed and a meeting with Patsy and questions about an internet business . great..  white feather ..arrows and all that stuff . glad to be of service . and watch this space in October . reiki attunement mnn !!

and after well teatime more salmon and potato . well time to wynd down .   and a little story about an irish boy who falls in love .. with a jewish girl . very smart !

and well the weather suits my mood . and Culmhead was the highlight .

thankyou to family Mum and Anthony. to great mental health to great physical health .. to great spirits . to waking up this morning breakfast herbal tea acupuncture .. and walks outside . nature and hobbies to travel to laughter to tears to comedy to music to tv to radio to good luck to good fortune to being single sober and a non smoker to peace of mind to work to the weekend to good neighbours to great landlords to a roof over my head to teachers Andrew Rose Jill to the albemarle center to buddha to help with living to the rent paid to banks to shops to vtamins to breakfast to medicine to teeth and showers to saunas to exercise to tai chi yoga to swimming to art to surprises to sleep to the washing done to dryers to electricity ..

and so onto the weekend .. feeling weird just now . like the time you say to yourself oh god i am so ** and whatever you say . yes sir i am shaking that tree . yessir still shaking that tree .. yep still shaking that tree .. and nobody knowing it now . only the ghost in your heart . and yes i've seen so much sheer brutality i no longer know the difference . only when a stranger flinches for no reason . . and you know what when i was poor i knew a lot of rich people now i'm rich all i know is poor people . so what's next . the music is playing and would the buddha mind . god if chinese people can listen to their music why ours is tame by comparison . and yet mostly we are all hypocrits . do as i say not as i do . thanks Dave Allen . yep i need some comedy in my life more than food . more for my peace of mind . more to keep the blues away . . time now to sign off and say bye bye . 

 

the weekend with friends
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: reiki undo
Topic: reiki

ok i am going to let my dinner go down .and after try what is called reiki undo .. where i lterally become a child a crazy person a new person and anything that might come up from my unconscious . thankyou .. and the day ! went well from an unpromising start . i guess i should take comfort ..running over town .. for what vitamins ... and the walk where i relaxed and was myself . meeting a great guy . truly humble and without any sgn of malice . what a day . hot and sunny . home and lunch . with what was a great reiki session .. lasting an hour ... and more . the best yet .

and after ! back to normal . tai chi for 4o mins . and more shopping .. and teatime .. and after.... now ! of course more reiki . undo .. and to be honest i feel that feeling .. around my ears .. a tightening around my temple . oh and you know i am gonna try the patch again . as this seemed to work throughout the day . funny how something that cost 51 pence could be so affective . so quickly ..

and now the afternoon is beginning to merge with the first signs of evening . long shadows turn to great swarthes of cool shade . leaving the earth to cool and  to chose it's new colours .. browns and reds .. blue grey and bright greens birds are taking to the skies .. and my sings of trouble that has gone and that might be .. laughter tingles in my soul and i feel the hunger of my body mind and spirit ..

time i feel for some action . it's 07.30PM and i am restless .. some more tai chi i believe ..

i am thinking of splitting my blog .
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: al the things that you are !
Topic: reiki
yes things change !! my routine has undergone a metamorphosis .waking early i now go swimming and after the shock have a sauna . this sorts me for the day . well kind of .. today i was free .. and decided to spend the hours in reiki . firstly in the morning for about an hour and twenty mins . and with good results . having read again more on the topic of kndalini awaking . i have found more information upon the subject at www.kundalinicare.com  now i am taking advice .finding a spiritual path ? and understanding the process .. of cleansing and also what kind of . if any at all event i experienced .. there are apparently quite a few .. to choose from .. and now i am a little bit the wiser . body wise i am good . having cut down on foods that might cause problems . no grass . no dairy . . no meat . leaving me as a vegetarian . well apart from fish well we all say that . ho ho . !! and so onto a spiritual path  ? i have found that i have a few choices . yoga tai chi reiki.. etc whilst i have searched for some kind of spiritual sustanance . ranging from witchery/shamanism  to Christianity . yes evangelical to a more anglican flavour .. there seems a dual attitude to the whole subject . on one hand the more far out the better . and then  as this interest waned i felt more attracted to the more conservative .. of spirit .. biodanza seems to fill the yearning that i feel and you know what i don't mind it's latin flavour .. and well . so far things have been going well . one term finished ..and i supose that the mix of dance and play are challenging enough . zen and christianity seem to have pointed me iin the right direction . my desire to communicate on as many levels as possible .. has led me to biodanza if only for now .  

the end of the day
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: jokes
Topic: reiki

ok so this is it . reiki for about 50 mins and you know what somehow i am not all sure . of it's efficacy . gasp!! and you know listening to a little laughter makes all the difference . my life is the funny side of 80 .. mmn !! and yes the yoga and qiqong wow sleep is easy !!

thanks

yoga and conflict
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: making things easier for everyone but me
Topic: reiki

ok before i forget . today has had it's highs and  lows . yes the matrix springs to mind . the bit where you travel from one world to another . yes i spent the day shifting things computers and monitors .making mstakes and rectifying them . and then to the evening where i went to my yoga class . and i felt the pull of the secular and the spiritual .. i guess my life could be called largely spiritual.. however there is a part of me that thirsts for other pastures .. i feel like the wife of a successful man who has to look good or else . like the scene from a Romero film . knight riders . where the 'black knight' is having his way with the woman who is going to make him famous and discovers that she is married . her words being well you didn't think that i could afford all of this on my own .. did you !! . yes we live in a secular world ..and i guess that it does cost to look this trashy .

oh well . the poem i would like to quote would be . that whenever i see trees covered in mud . i am reminded that there are people who live their lives in obscurity . and yes you know it to be so . i am one of those people . . the metaphor actually describes the fact that there are frequent mud slides in Japan and the Emperor is alluding to the old caste system . .. i believe .

now to the  day . in brief . woken up 07.30 AM and straight to tai chi shops and breakfast . lasting until 09.45 AM . mnn so onto work the aforementioned Computer place . work lasted until 02.45 PM and then onto a swim .03.00 PM till before 05.00 PM shops and a quick guitar practice . till 05.45 PM and then onto yoga.. yes this was my highlight .. lasting until 07.30 PM and the wonders of fish and chips .. it's now half eight . great !!

thankyou to family and friends . Chris and Eric .Kim . to all my fellow yogis . to my teachers Rose Andrew Nagib . to my wonderful mental health to my great physical health .. to my senses eyes ears to touch to smell to taste . to my limbs arms and legs to breakfast to waking up to tai chi to yoga to lunch to dinner to my teeth to my hair to shops to heating on a cold night to good fortune to luck to good neighbours to good landlords to music to comedy to tears to laughter to being a non smoker to being a sober person to being a celbate kind a guy . to vitamins to medicine to my garden to a roof over my head to help with living to rent paid to work and voluntary work . to money in the bank to earning all i can . to investments to Buddha to higher mind .. to the internet to toys to phones to all our safe keeping . to hobbies photography to guitars . to sleep to showers to all of my abilities to Queens College .. To Aberdeen University . to travel to art to books to the brewhouse .. to doctors to nurses to social workers to dentists to help from friends .. to the post man . to ebay to amazon . to bank accounts

oh well that was that .

the blues is on ..
Mood:  incredulous
Now Playing: i love you
Topic: reiki

yes what a day getting better . and this time it is personal .. my research  my experiment .. and i am counting my chickens before they are hatched .. and i am  feeling confident that's all . today went well . and the only hitch is public speaking . however that is to be honest is a small thing ..

i feel good .. and this is getting to be a habit ..  hurrah . i guess that this is early and yet i have not felt this way since well five years when i recovered with the help of a drug that is i imagine very powerful . and so life goes on .

yes it could be different tomorrow and yet this is something that i have taken upon my shoulders ..and the target day is mid october perhaps if i was to be extremely conservative i would give myself another three to four weeks .. tops .. however there you are ..i guess it is dificult not to be excited . .. ah  well !! meditation time .. #

yoga
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: reiki

yes yoga .. is beginning to be fun .. after almost five years of day in day out slog . i have jsut began to meditate.. and to reconcile my senses .. with my mind and ego . and i have to conclude ..it is going to take a long time . a very long time .. perhaps never . maybe maybe not . i just hope my teacher  lives to be a hundred plus ..